Growing Up Is Hard To Do

You have to stop and realize what you have, what you lost, and what you've sacrificed everything for. It was probably the only person you thought was worth loving or the hardest month you had to endure. But remember that everything happens for a reason - even if it makes no sense at all, even if you don't understand why it happened to you. As one door closes, another door opens. As your heart breaks a little more each day, each day is a day of acceptance.

You will learn to love again. You will learn how to do things for yourself. You will learn that even the people that love you the most can hurt you the most in so many ways you never knew possible. But at the end of the day, the most important lesson is to pick yourself up with your head held high. You're strong; stronger than you've ever been.

There will be a person in your life that will be the epitome of everything you hate and love. They pick you up when you've lost all hope in everything; they teach you everything they know just so you will do better; they will tell you the truth even when it hurts so bad; they will be the one individual you compare all your friendships/relationships to because the struggles, fights, loving, and break-ups to make-ups were more than worth it.

Growing up is a difficult process. And quite frankly, I fear my near future. I never know what I want, I change my mind on everything I like, I love, I hate. I have few relationships because nobody's worth trusting these days. Nonetheless I fear of letting go because all I know is all I will ever know; all I will ever want to know.